How far along? 36 Weeks
Size of Baby:
Maternity Clothes: Lets just face it. I look pretty atrocious at this point. Don't stop by my house unannounced... you'll probably be frightened out of your skin. I make an attempt during the day to wear normal clothes, but not much is covering this belly. Around dinner time I usually give up and go pantless, or a pair of shorts and a sports bra it is. I am hitting up the dollar store this week for a couple of cheap dresses I saw that will be more comfortable and hopefully help get me through the next few weeks without someone calling the police on me for indecent exposure. I went outside a couple of days ago in a sports bra and a pair of shorts and Jared was laughing at how all the little boys next door that were playing hockey had to stop and stare at me. Poor kids.
Total Weight Gain/Loss: +26 lbs a couple of weeks ago. I'm sure I'll be up to +30 at my appointment tomorrow.
Gender: sweet baby girl! Briar Elizabeth Story!
Belly Button In/Out: Oh it's so out. Even multiple layers of clothes don't hide that sucker!
Stretch Marks: It's hard to say. My stretch marks are weird because I can only really see them if I turn in the light a certain way. But I'm pretty sure i have a lot more across the bottom of my belly and coming off the top of my old belly button piercing scar.
I also forgot to mention it, but around 33/34 weeks my linea nigra decided to make an appearance. It's super light but it's there. How weird is it that I got one so late in the game??
Labor Signs: Who freaking knows.
Labor Signs: Who freaking knows.
Movement: Oh Lord.
Sleep: Not good. Having to pee wakes me up super early in the morning and then I can't fall back asleep. Last night a cat fight woke me up (and Rowan) and then I was so hungry I couldn't go back to sleep. I woke up a few more times too. Gah. It's so bad at the end. Some nights I am up ALL night long.
All the same.
I've had a rough start to the week. Besides just getting really impatient to have my baby, all of the body changes have been catching up to me. I had a little ugly cry sesh when I was talking with Jared after R was in bed for the night a few nights ago. It's mostly the face swelling that gets to me. Yeah, it's hard to be so uncomfortable, to not fit into any clothes, to have a gigantic belly.... but my face blowing up and making me not even look like myself on top of that all is just hard to deal with. I feel embarrassed by it, even though I know it's not my fault. This is just how my body handles pregnancy. I'm a tiny person so it's just a lot of strain. My belly gets so darn big because there is hardly any room between the bottom of my ribs and my hip bones (what my OB told me).
All of that aside, Jared reminded me to keep remembering what a privilege it is to be pregnant. Just a few years ago we were struggling so much with the thought that we might never get to experience this, and there are still so many women who are longing to. Growing this baby is a gift, and having this temporary pain/discomfort/and swelling is SO WORTH IT. He thanked me for going through all of this so that we could have our beautiful family.
Needless to say I felt a lot better after that. He's so right. And ya know what? i'm just going to embrace the 'I'm-SO-incredibly-pregnant-I-could-pop' look. Cause... I am! And I should be proud of it, proud of what my body is doing, and happy to carry my girl. And I am.
Best Moment this Week: Having a good weekend with my boys.
What I Miss: Bending down, sleeping on my belly, having energy.
What I am Looking Forward To: My dr's appointment tomorrow. Weekly appts now! I can't wait to see if they think she's dropped at all, make sure she's head-down... all that good stuff :)
Milestones: officially in the 2-4 week away zone. That's craziness to me.
Next Appointment: Tomorrow! :)
- my nesting this time around has been significantly less. I remember cleaning out our laundry baskets with Lysol last time, and obsessively scrubbing the floor every couple of days. Rowan's room was completely washed and Lysoled every.week.
This time? Not so much. I have some cleaning things to do on my list before she comes, and I SO don't feel like doing it. I'm really sick of thinking about the freaking list. I just want to get to the part where we're living normal life together after she's here.
I don't even really feel like packing my hospital bags, which I should probably have done by next week. What the heck.
And I have all of two meals in my freezer right now.
Also- a little Rowan update:
He has been SUCH a good boy for the past week. Jared's been working with him in the tantrum department, and he has made so much progress! I am so thankful. It could just be a temporary phase that he's being better, but I really think that daddy being strict in the discipline department has made the difference. We haven't had to put him in time out for over a week.
Now when he starts to have a tantrum we say, "No fits. You use your words or you will go in time out." And he stops crying. Sometimes he will still lay on the floor and cry, but it's only for a few seconds (until we remind him that he needs to use his words), and it's nothing like the screaming bloody murder- kicking and hitting stuff he was doing before. Praising God for this improvement!
He's also been an excellent listener, sweet and helpful. I've been very thankful for a good week & praying for it to continue!